Yeah, I know, you're right about all of that. But, I want to keep up with the big boys. No delusions about ever bench pressing 525 lbs like my former PT used to do, but he was a serious competitive bodybuilder.

Yes, I am SO MUCH healthier, all around, including in the psych department, than I was ... so yes, I should see the glass as 90% full.

My physique isn't even all bad - granted, Jennifer Aniston ain't gonna throw herself at me any time soon, but as a guy who went from stocky flabby to decent at one point to flabby to fat, I'm proud of that too. Not quite a six pack but at least I don't have a beer belly or a paunch or love handles.

I just wanna feel like a real man, a little macho, not the bad cave-man treat women like **** kind, just the kind of guy who has some confidence and know's he's a little bit tough. It was denied me my whole life due to one thing or another, I want that, Hell, I kinda need that.