No, youre not the only one
ive gone through some times like that as well. i am socially awkward, and i have issues with eye contact. i barely look at people. theres also been times that ive had dissociation issues (and kind of still do), i might not be able to relate to it all, but a big part of it, i can. and ive known of others too, so rest assured, youre not the only one.