I too am ADHD, Actually found out right before NPD. I take all types of medication to try and help with that and none of then do anything.
Adderall 30mg
Focalin don't remember dose
Concerta
Desoxyn 10mg
Wellbutrin 300mg
Lexapro 20mg
None of them help anything. I even started Xanax 1mg when I get that "feeling" and that too has stopped being so effective as well.
For some reason my body doesn't react like a normal person to medication... Could be my NPD thing lol.
Learning of reasons why equates to why is something I have yet to be able to come to accept or forgive. I realize that there is nothing I can do to change the past but at the same time it's so hard to change the present. I am stuck in my ways and in my second post above I just started many stories with no explanation for any. Meaning many incomplete sentences as the depth I started to speak of never passed the surface. There are so many factors that happened while growing up which defined who I became as with all of us. I am also much better equipped to see the damage from more than just one side and the continued negativity that invades my space when I "keep in touch". Anyway appreciate the words and the time taken to read my post's.