Hi pkey: I don't know that you can compare the characters in your TV show to what's going on with you in your mind, any more than you can compare what goes on in television-land with real life. TV characters are, of necessity, pretty-much one-dimensional characters. Real human beings, on the other hand, are complicated multi-dimensional beings.

I don't think it is uncommon at all for a person to have different aspects to their personalities. Some of these may be positive & some may be negative. It sounds to me as though, although you are in one aspect quite a strong & positive person, there is another part of you that feels weak & vulnerable. I'd say that's common. We all have places within us that feel that way.

It seems to me there are two possibilities here. One is there's some part of yourself you are currently unable to accept... perhaps something or things that happened in the past that hurt you. Or the other possibility may be that the stronger part of you recognizes there is this soft spot inside that could be harmed, & your stronger self does not want to accept the more vulnerable part. Either way this is really a matter of integrating the two aspects of your personality.

One way to do this, of course, is through therapy. On the other hand, if you can come to accept that everyone has this "soft spot" inside & that it is actually something of great value, then you may be able to resolve your inner conflict yourself. I don't know if you enjoy reading or not, but if so the books that have been written by the Buddhist nun Pema Chödrön deal directly with how to come to know this inner soft spot & in what way it is of great value.