Your actions (or in your case, inactions) have got you into this mess.

All the opinion seeking from this forum and elsewhere won't change things.

All the blaming ... excusing .... justifying and rationalizing won't change things.

You are where you are.

Analysis will only get you so far. Eventually, it becomes an anchor, making the simplest choice a overly complex debate. Do i ask her out? Do i get my own mailbox to keep my mother from opening my mail? My gut tells me i should go out, but my horoscope says 'stay safe'. The Weather Channel says 50% chance of showers...what to do?

Analysis becomes Paralysis

You speak in intentions. Intentions are just empty promises we make to ourselves about all things we are going to do, someday.

Are you willing to put a time limit on your intentions, making them goals?

What are you willing to give up to achieve freedom? happiness? dignity?

What are you willing to risk to have success?

Until you are able to answer those questions, you will remain stuck.

You must accept the fact that you are in a prison, where the door unlocks from the inside.

Your perception of being powerless is keeping you from taking action.

Only your actions will move you.

Assuming of course, that you actually want to move.