Hey Wade, glad thanks for sharing your story on PC. Sorry you have a painful break up you are trying to heal from.

Do you have a therapist? That is how many people work through the heavy lifting of a loss.

Just a point from having ready 100's of PC posts. 95% of the people have serious problems and are not happy. I think rather than an anomaly, your situation is much like others.

The forum on relationships and communication may be of interest.