What should you look like, Jolisse? : )

Your physical body & appearance are not a reflection of your highest identity and true nature.

I recall at some point having feelings of not identifying with my physical appearance and body. At the time it was a subtle sense of thinking, "This doesn't feel like me". What ended up happening over time was that I went through a period of significant internal (spiritual) growth that served to change my state of awareness (and being) in a positive, transformative way. I arrived at the realization that I was not my physical self (or body), and that my true identity/nature transcends these temporary aspects. In hindsight I was able to make sense of those subtle feelings of not feeling like myself when I looked in the mirror. It was a very subtle sense of intuitive 'knowing' that there was higher identity/nature waiting for me to discover.

Anxiety & depression can sometimes precede significant spiritual growth. Also feelings of being 'empty' and losing your sense of physical identity (or your 'former self').

Let me know if any of these conceptualizations resonate or not...

Hope you gain some insight soon as to what is transpiring in your life and that you can make progress moving forward. Try not to feel attached to or obligated to conform to a former image/identity of yourself, re-invent yourself... Life is about change : )