I thought I was reading something about myself. Wow. I go through the same things, especially feeling like everyone is laughing or talking about me. I would walk around with a knot in my stomach. Imagine living with two other 'friends' in an apartment where it's hard to find quiet space. I don't know how old you are but after my first year at college I went back to my hometown and lived with my parents for the summer. I told them what was going on with me and they provided a safe environment. I had a hands on job with few co-workers so it felt like I had some purpose completing tasks everyday. I came back to school this year and have made some improvements. I would recommend having a safe person to talk about what's going on and something to give you a sense of purpose (sticking to one of your projects and completing it). A pet is also another option that you could try. It would give you something to love.