i am in the same spot as u but i went over ....and i am freaking out

i am hoping this will help u and me at the same time so here it goes

1 u need to id what is making u feel this way ....what event ...what thought....what actions
by naming it get a understanding of it and begins to be less of a monster

2 keep it positive as much as u can always look for the silver lining .......if u have to make a joke out of it lessing the effect on u for a short time

3 the times the thoughts come in your head and loop ....break it find something else to distract u to keep it from going downwards

4 talk about it just getting it off your chest and outside points of view can be a really big good thing .....and they will tell u to head to doctor or what ever they think is best ....crazies stick together we know what it like

5 do some looking on the net for info .......but if the info gets bad or freaks u out more ....stop ....come here and read/help

6 lady told me this is living in the moment trick love&toll (hope getting that right)
get a skeletonized watch and watch the gears the movements ...the mathwork for the gears to keep time just gears and tension ...watch the movement and think about that (the movement is so fast and thinking about the watch it takes alot so what ever was in there is gone ) centers u
Amazon.com: AMPM24 Vintage Hollow Skeleton Case Mechanical Pocket Watch WPK015: Watches
that is mine

help this helps .......helped me a little so thanks