I am 50, and for the past 3 years haven't been in control of my own money because of the impulse problem with this disorder. I have a Representative Payee. Social Security doesn't let me handle my own money. I get personal spending money. I am on an allowance because of this illness basically. And while we laugh sometimes at the antics we pull - it can be hell and cause serious problems. your having a very bad day true - but I only see my psychiatrist once a year - BY CHOICE. I saw my psychologist/counselor weekly for 5 years, but I don't need any more talk therapy right now.

Your allowed to feel frustrated and at the end of your rope. More rope will appear tomorrow. Frankly, I am glad someone else is handling my money for me now cause they always pay my bills on time, and I know that I will get my food money, and I know how much it will be.

I like only seeing my shrink once a year. I am on good meds that are working - if that changes, i will call. I see her nurse every 3 months to tell her all is fine, and we carry on. It is NICE not having to frigging tell every single detail of everything they should scrutinize. I am a nice and good person and I don't always want to have to frigging explain myself.

You are doing well enough in the shrinks eyes that she can see you less and still medicate you, that is good. Get a counselor to see like monthly to talk about stuff to. Maybe one for you both, and have your wife do the bills for a bit. release some control as a means of giving yourself less stress.

The world needs us 'sickos'. One less you is not what they want. Come cuss some more if you need to. For all we know, you might be choosing the exact right time and place to vent. Best of luck to us all.