it could be..im so pessimistic....God only knows why ....its just im starting to realize something....im missing so much out of my childhood...it was like a whack in the face...ive realized i have been telling the same stories of my childhood ..but its like random 6 stories..that i thought made up my whole life...and this memory cracked me over the head when i realized what the heck did i do for those 8 to 9 years...its crazy.....im crazy...ripping my hair out now lol....