it's so hard, I love him dearly but I'm getting to the point where I need to love or leave. he said not too long ago that losing me was a big fear cuz of how good I treated him was. & I'll tell him that. we actually took a break back in the beginning of November cuz of the fighting, that didn't last long cuz he said he missed me & loved me. maybe this is what we need? I feel like I need closure though