Hi. I have 2 days sober today. I have gone to my AA meetings and got a sponsor. I have been at this a few years now. I am sick and tired of Alcohol and Drugs controlling me and the consequences that I reap from abusing them. Most of all,I have lost my self respect. I already know I lost the respect of my husband and family. I know this will take time to regain. I heard now at 2 different meeting I attended about "Living Amends". I think that is how I will make a difference with my husband and family. I have said all the words already, and they mean nothing when my actions say differently. But I am redy to do this thing for me now. I have been around the rooms for about 12 years now. But we get it when we get. Anyway, just thought I would share. I meet with my sponsor tomorrow.