Still have not heard from my friend. I am truly puzzled! It does not seem like the character of the person that I thought I was getting to know. To say I am disappointed is an understatement. My day was officially ruined, I feel more and more sadness as the day progresses. I've got 7 more hours of being awake probably to feel tortured. This along with the knowledge that I have no christmas gifts bought and no money to buy any until tomorrow. It's all just swirling around in my head.

If I was a normal person I would just try to go to bed early, but due to my chronic sleeplessness, that is impossible! If I were to take something like benadryl to help me sleep, my whole day tomorrow would be ruined because it makes me feel like a big old steaming pile of poo.

I'm just so tired of being miserable, 24/7. So many long days and hours of sadness and loneliness is just torture. See how the whole thing just spiraled? Remind me to never make plans with another human being again. Wow, I am a pathetic drama queen.