I want to give up so bad. People tell me I'm not suicidal if I've never tried. They say this as though I care what they label me. What does it matter in the end. A corpse is a corpse. I am so tired but I'm afraid. I keep thinking if I actually did it that my parents would scold me. Even if I was gone I feel afraid of their disapproval . And they have spent so much money to sustain me and I just flush away all of their money. Idk I'm just so tired.