Can feel it coming on again, and I can't seem to shake it. Anxiety first, I know what happens next. No one to talk to about it. So here I am yelling into the wind. It always comes back. I'll try this. I don't know why. I can't imagine this leading to anything useful. How do normal people do it? Really, the world is just as hopeless and meaningless to them, why don't they see that? They're just as powerless as I am, why don't they care about it? What will it take for me to not care like everyone else doesn't care, so I can pretend everything's just fricking rosey like they do? Beh forget it... rhetorical questions. I know what the trite and hollow answers are already...