So I really have a tough time even describing what is going on. It's hard to describe my symptoms. I have trouble doing daily tasks, and I definitely cannot work a regular job.

It's just becoming overwhelming, even though I always get through it anyways. I just would feel better if I could reach out for some support for once on these forums. I do have a dx and I understand that may be the reason I feel the way I feel.

I just am tired of feeling this way like I never have the ability to conquer tasks I used to be able to. I wonder sometimes if abruptly stopping marijuana after I had a psychosis and mental breakdown made me weak. I feel like the marijuana would help me, except part of me gets paranoid even talking or thinking about it. I know one thing, that I missed having to give it up, and I miss the feeling it gave me. Just would need medical grade stuff now at this point.

Current Med Schedule: 1.5mg invega sustenna + .5mg Xanax in the morning, followed by 5mg of Abilify at night time.

Some help or advice would be good. FYI: I have tested getting off my meds before (abilify to be exact) and I could not successfully do it without major problems. So just letting you all know switching that med out would not work, I don't think... But, I think I am open to adding some. Thanks for listening.