Well I called the victim witness program person today and she told me that there is nothing in the system about any of this. I am concerned now that the county attourney decided not to take the case on. That means that he would get away with all of this. I am still having problems coping with all of this and I am going to start a partial hospitalization program on Monday to help me. I havve been breaking down and crying and I am really hurt by all of this. If I had a choice I would go back to this one hospital but my insurance won't pay for me to go back again. Though it would be really helpful. I don't know what to do. I have been having flashbacks and everything. Though they really are not my flashbacks because I wasn't there. My part, Jenny, was there and she is also very traumatized by all of this. My whole system seems like it is shut down pretty much. I have hardly been switching or dissociating. Though I have been at the doctors office because of what they have to do. I just really need as much support and help that I can get really. Which I am reallyl not even getting hardly any right now. I really don't have any friends in real life, so that is difficult. well I am trying to make it through and any support from any of you would be great.

Jennifer