Glad you are still here Fallingdown....

Use this experience as a catalyst that pushes you to take the necessary steps to improve your internal state of being. You CAN DO IT friend... Don't think that you need to fix everything overnight - that's too overwhelming. It's all about taking small steps - the little things that accumulate and add up overtime to contribute to SIGNIFCANT GROWTH and POSITIVE CHANGES. Please stick around. Hang in there.