Life is a difficult thing, there is nothing wrong with being tired or afraid, but it is possible to get through the rough patches in life. Your parents will always love you no matter what you do gist please don't do anything rash. I have gone through similar things to which you are describing, and I want you to know that us as a community will always be there. if you wish to talk more you can always PM me I'll try to respond as fast as I can. Until next time goodluck.