I have called this T twice and both times she called me back. Now however, I see it as an indicator to myself that whatever is on my mind needs further thought and exploration by me for now, and I will write about it / journal instead. So far that seems to work. One of my issues is panic and not giving myself room around my emotions, not exploring the many options and explanations for things, so this helps me to do that too, by continuing to think and to write about it.

I just came from session a few minutes ago. For once I felt able to articulate. Unfortunately I felt like I was competing with her for "floor time". Maybe because she is used to nudging me.. lol dragging me... or maybe she was just having a time where she wasn't giving things room herself, or maybe there was just a lot there and she wanted to stay on some things a few minutes before I went off another direction. Anyway, it was a good session, very good.. but it seemed messy, disorganized.

Oh. Ha! For the last few sessions her disorganized room has bugged me and I've almost said something. Looks like it was bugging me again today, from the way I describe the session.

I also mentioned issues about my son's perpetually messy room when he was young during this session. She has lots of little toys on shelves for kids' therapy and when talking about my son's room I said we had gone to McDonald's a lot and had lots of 'those little crappy toys" from there. oops! lol