The delusions are really my biggest struggle with the illness. for most of my life i didnt know i was delusional and things were really grand. now im trying to accept that im delusional but its really just an intellectual exercise, deep down i still fully believe in my experiences and i just keep making excuses for why things dont add up now. its really only since ive been struggling to accept my experiences as delusional that my mental health has declined. in my case i think ignorance was bliss, the more i struggle to come to terms with it all the less well i fare.