Hello squidyward: First I'd like to congratulate you for being willing to face the problems you're having. The teenage years are tough. You are not insane. However, you are clearly concerned about yourself &, of course, anorexia is certainly a potentially serious illness. Likewise, this drug habit you mention is also of concern. So I'd like to encourage you to seek out some therapy services for yourself in whatever way works best for you (through school, at a community mental health center, etc.) Many people take years and years to come to the realization you have already come to. (I know, I'm one of them.) Take advantage of this hard-won self knowledge. My best wishes to you!