i hope so direction. we have been through our ups and downs enough, he knows me inside out, i sometimes feel i dont know him at all.
he has been slightly more affectionate, but i feel it's a chore for him and he does it when he remembers rather than just impulsively. its a shame, because i could just go up and give him my affection on a whim when i look at him sometimes, but its getting to the stage where i stop myself cos i dont think he wants me to. it hurts. but tonight i'm not going to get down about it cos i've had the best day and night in months.
still feel wide awake lol. its strange seeing everyone drunk, funny, i only had a wine spritzer which i made last, god knows how lol. usually i'm the one singing up the stairs and annoyinjg my teens lmao, it was tony tonight hee hee.

kerry xoxoxoxo