Thank you so much, d.o.a!! You made me feel so much better. I agree, I think I'm holding onto these feelings because this is how I define myself. This is me, this is who and what I am, I have always been this way, I am this. And as you say, if I let go of these feelings, I won't know who I am. I never thought that, but you are so right! I need to create an entirely new self-image to replace the old one.