I'm feeling discouraged and very disappointed in myself and my life.

I'm frustrated with the way things are currently... every day is exactly the same and it seems I never have anything to look forward to. My days are grey and uneventful. It's no wonder I'm always depressed!

What frustrates me is the fact that I feel so stuck, when I'm really not. There are things I can do, I just can't seem to motivate myself enough to do them. Sure, they probably wouldn't make much of a difference in the broader scheme of my life, because I still would be living here and trying to survive my parents getting drunk and yelling every night. I suppose I don't see the point in doing things like going out of the house unless it will make me feel better, which I assume it wouldn't.