everyday it gets harder. I'm not quite sure what else i can do to stop myself. everything is a weapon, and every word a dagger. i don't know what to do anymore. I don't trust myself alone, but i can't stand being around anyone. my stress level has skyrocketed to the point where i can't even do anything. I'm so tired of being brave and being strong, whats the point? i've been taking medications now for almost a year with no result. I've talked to counselors, I've tried talking with my boyfriend and my sister, but they don't understand and i can't make them. I'm on my own here, and i can't handle this. i just want to smile for real just once, to be alone and not be battling myself regarding SI. i just need a hug from someone who understands.
thanks for listening