So back from T with a safety plan. He said we're doing right by Miguel. My coldness is preserved. However my logic is failing me and my communication ability's are slipping. He doesn't like that I feel like if I don't harm my self something bad will happen and the safety plan was for that. My former T wrote a lot that even with my thoughts I have never seriously harmed myself or others and if I ever do it's because I wont be able to comprehend that it's harmful. He started reading front to back but then decided back to front was the best bet.