Forgive me if I'm way off on this, it just sounds like you want to impress your T and then she'll "want" you. She'll care and want to keep you as a "good" client. As well seeing the 2nd T is great but maybe you want T1 to notice you are gone and don't need her. (I know she doesn't know yet, but will one day when you get to say I don't need you anymore)

I might be 100% off.