THank you so much for the responses! It's so incredibly hard, as I'm sure all of you have previously or currently know. It's just, theres that part of me that would love to completely give up and just starve myself and hide away from the world. But i know i cant....These sugar rushes are so overwhelmingly hard to restrain. Its so much easier to give in and just eat every sweet thing I can get my hands on. But tonight, although I still feel like i ate alot (because for once I have eaten a meal and kept it down....altho it was the only thing I had eaten today) I feel like I made a break through. I was at a outlet shopping center up north of where I live with some friends and we had stopped to get a smoothie at Orange Julius. Well, one of my friends wanted a pretzel as well and she kept pushin me to get a cookie....So I did....I gave in and bought three but only ate part of one and havent touched them since. I'm proud of myself for that!

Slowly but surely, some how, I am going to find a way to lose weight. be happy. be healthy. and be me. Thank you again for the responses esp. Pickle, those granola bars are sooo good! I love them! and Oryan, thank you guys so much!