Thanks everyone. It's great to have the support of people who know what it's like to struggle with their own brain. I made it to my appointment and it did me a lot of good. We talked a lot and she tweaked my meds. We also developed a layered plan in place to avoid my getting into the situation I was in the last few days. I 'm feeling like I've come back from the edge. Still feeling, well, elevated, but feel safe.

Oh, and "Justug" the icon/avatar is one that I just selected from the random choices this forum provides by default.