I just read your other post where you explained what happened.. I can't even tell you how sorry I am that those people did this to you I'm stunned.. How could they?! Seriously.. I need to say this - those f*tards!!!

I can't know exactly how you feel, but I, too, have been betrayed and abused by two people who were closest to me at one point in my life and whom I should have been able to trust more than anyone - my parents.. That kind of thing can really mess a person up. The betrayal rocks and can shatter everything you've ever believed in and held true.

I hope you already know this, but I'm going to say it anyway - what they did was NOT your fault. Absolutely not! In your other post, you talked about having regrets and wondering what you did to them for them to do this to you. Obviously, I cannot know what kind of relationships you had with these people before they did this, but even if there were problems, the grown-up thing for them to do would have been to discuss it with you, not do this! Really, there's no justification for what they did. And again, I'm SO sorry you had to have your trust broken like this..

Back to your anger and hatred.. I know you probably don't want to hear this, and maybe you can find a way to work through your feelings quicker, but based on my own experience, I'm inclined to agree with your therapist - I feel there are no shortcuts you can take. It can be a lengthy process - and frustrating as hell!!! I've been there. For me, the hardest thing to deal with has been grief. I've been terrified of going through the emotions as feeling them genuinely feels as though I'm about to die - it actually hurts, physically. So, I've been reluctant to feel them, and at the same time, anxious to get it over with - but I think however long it takes, it's also your body's way of looking after you - it tells you when it has had enough. And then you can continue the next day - release the emotion(s) for as long as you need to get it all out..

And it's definitely not them 'just' exiting your body - it requires work, and can be hard work. Look after yourself during this process!

Not sure how you feel about medication, but maybe your doctor can prescribe you something to make you feel better while you work through this. Not to distract you from how you're feeling, but calm you down enough so that your body doesn't go into overdrive all the time. Distracting yourself from the pain or trying to ignore it won't make it go away, you'll just be burying it deeper into your body where it'll stay and ultimately, spill over, make you explode all of a sudden, or maybe turn into physical symptoms.

I've found that the best way to get through emotions is by simply sharing how you feel with someone - not looking for a way to change how you're feeling, but by saying honestly, 'I hate that guy, I'm so angry I feel I could kill him!!!' or whatever it is that you feel. And then having someone hear you out who can simply be there. Not necessarily offer you advice (because what advice is there) but just hear what you're saying. Stay present. Just accept what you're saying. I find that very healing. And I'm sure there are people like that here on these boards And if you do feel like you need something specific, you could say, 'I feel this way, can you tell me I'll be alright/it wasn't my fault/give me a hug'/whatever it is that you need.

Take care!