well since the last time i wrote i am still severely depressed, now of course the holidays are here. i can just about get out of bed in the morning, but offered my son to come for christmas with my 2 grandsons. well then he started putting more demands on me wanting me to keep my one grandson for a week then wanting to come back for new years with a girl i will never be able to handle all this, i started telling him & he is really angry with me saying i am not normal & various other things i am now thinking of cancelling everything & just going into the hospital. sometimes he puts me on a guilt trip also.