((pacots))

Wow....I really feel for you on this. How do you take care of yourself and your family at the same time.

I would first slow down and find a way to comfort yourself and clear your mind of all things except your needs. Ask yourself what you need to do for yourself that will put your mind at ease. What is it that you need right now?

You may have to set boundaries. This seems unpleasant and unfair to your family but if you are contemplating going into the hospital then it is time to take care of yourself. Your son is an adult and he must find a way to accept your wishes.

(I am not a therapist as this is only my opinion so please accept it as that, just an opinion)