I have been wondering about my mental health. I know I'm not healthy but I don't know if I should get help. I've had traumatic experiences and one affects me the most. Its so bad that all I want is to forget (which is impossible) but I keep having nightmares and flashbacks and certain things trigger memory. I avoid certain situations. I have a lot of worries and fears but they are understandable I guess in my situation. I'm a survivor of rape. I've tried to report but nothing was done. I still see him when I go places and it affects me so much to the point that I feel sick and all I want to do is hid and then I feel like I can no longer control my emotions. Many times when I see him or he gets too close I want to run, cry, curl up into a ball. Once I saw him and I felt as if time was moving very slowly. It was unusual and I've never had that happen before. I wish things were different but they're not. I'm unsure what to do.