Today I am very grateful for:

my GP, for her gentle care, the pain meds and referrals for further treatment;

my care manager, for his support and kindness and creativity;

and my awesome T, for understanding why i was so frightened in our last session yesterday, accepting my (via text) explanation today, gently challenging me, and then when i plucked up the very-last-minute courage to ask for something extra to help me through his break, doing it for me.

20 seconds of courage really can pay off.