My current relationship is a really unique and complicated situation...maybe? IDK. I was in an abusive relationship for 2 years. several weeks before I ended that relationship, I met this girl. She was from a mommy group I was in and we became close friends. We began flirting and I ended up fully cheating on my then girlfriend. I've never cheated before. This was the first time. I ended up falling in love with this girl. Head over heels.
I have a friend in New Zealand that I've always had a thing for. Well, around the time of my breakup we were flirting. And it just sort of continued. IDK why. It just did. My current girlfriend accidentally read some of the texts between me and NZ girl and is understandably extremely upset and hurt.
Considering how she and I started, she's especially lost trust in me. And I am heart broken for having done this to her. I feel like such a failure and a prick.
She's giving me another chance. She told me that rebuilding the trust is completely dependent on me.
I need help on how to get her back. To show her that I love her. That the last several months with her have been real, and that I want a future with her.
I've said I was sorry. I cut off contact with my friend from NZ and shown her the messages stating so. I've deleted snapchat off my phone. I gave her a painting I made for her for christmas. I know I need to do everything right.
I'm going to her place today after work. I want to buy her flowers. Is that too much? IDK. I'm so scared of losing her.