Emotions all over the place. I guess the stressors of the last 6 months are finally catching up with me. Had a total meltdown, flushed all the pills I was hoarding, gave my car keys to my husband and, and had him hide the guns. I survived it, seems it was just a brief episode, but scary after looking back. I was ready to go inpatient, but we had no insurance. Thank God it's over. I think I can make it thru Xmas. I never do much decorating, we go to my brother's house for two days. I'm cutting the visit short.