Well done for reaching out by posting here, Sarah. I know it's hard, but you have taken that first step.

I'm not sure how things work in the USA as I live in the UK, but when I started having concerns I went to my own GP - as in the doctor I would see for anything else. She was very helpful and gentle and referred me to a counsellor first of all. Then I went on to try CBT, and that therapist thought that EMDR might be better for me - I'm in the middle of that now. There are other ways of getting started, such as ringing a helpline. I know you have a different health system in the USA, I think there is a section on here somewhere about choosing a therapist which may be useful for you.

It does seem to take a long time from first plucking up the courage to talk to anyone but I think my brain needs to take its time dealing with all this anyway. The one thing that is certain is that my mind isn't going to let go of all this until it is sorted out. If it has been so long since your trauma I think you should definitely get some professional help.

It is difficult but it will lead to better things.


Bluegrey