I'm sorry you feel so bad again, I know it can be so heartbreaking. I still dream of Bill falling in love with me (lol as if) but I'm just happy I'll get to meet him. The hard part will be meeting him and then having to walk away but I have some time to get used to the idea.

What else is going in for you right now, anything good you could try focus on instead? I'm just thinking now, maybe a lot of it (for both of us) is just boredom. I mean it feels nice (to a certain extent) to think about someone we like. It's obviously really distressing you now though, so I think working on it with someone could be helpful.

By the way, I like your status under your name, well like is probably the wrong word cos it's not exactly a good thing, but sadly it is true, I have felt that way a lot too. Sending hugs.