I have the same problem except I'm straight and get attached very quickly to men my fathers age. My father abandoned me and I have no friends. With every older man who showed me any attention/affection I became obsessed with. I am currently going through the withdrawals of the last man who was 30 years older than me. He was the one who claimed he was in love with me! I hate getting attached so easily so from now on I won't allow it. It has destroyed my heart, self esteem, and health. I would rather be alone than abandoned again.