I am feeling better today. I think just blurting out that feeling I was having was something I needed to do. Sorry about the negativity of it, but you guys know, right? I hope so.

Thanks CANDC. I never really know what to say to other people. I'm pretty insightful, or so everyone tells me, but I'm not a trained psychologist... I don't want to say the wrong thing to someone who's hurting.

I also have a habit of saying way too much... for example I've edited about a page of text out of this post already

Thank you Anxious Minds. I'll think about what you said. I've thought it myself many times, but it sure isn't easy finding my own purpose. But I know it's true, whenever there's been an emergency, or a crisis, or the whole world is falling apart around me, those were the only times I felt... good. It might sound twisted to other people, but those were the only times I had a reason to be. I become strong, and help everyone else through it. Then when life goes back to normal... the gloom sets in again. It's a work in progress I guess.