Hi HolographicTardis, really well done on the two weeks "clean"!!!!
I'm guessing that must have been really hard for you at times, so massive credit there!!!
And you gave into the urges............well don't let that take away from the achievement you made.........two weeks!!!
It's not like you failed, it can be so hard to give up SI sometimes when the "need" is there..........so if you slipped..........well you've still got the two weeks you managed not to. You've still got a big achievement!!!
So please don't see it as the urges won......or you "can't do it"..........maybe more about trying to work more to the point where you can be "clean" for three weeks another time.........and then..........
And you know maybe work on building in more coping skills, or getting more support with the feelings that can sometimes lead to.............???
It can be such an uphill battle, but you've already shown you have some real strength in holding off...........and don't forget we're here for you too!!!
Here if you want to talk...............
And once again..............two weeks!!!! Really well done!!!!!!
Alison