i am new to anxiety as well. it has been triggered by a new relationship that might not now survive my depression and anxiety. not that he has anything against it, just it could seriously affect my behaviour. i had a meltdown on thursady and couldn't stop crying. i felt like i was grieving. at times i get so frantic and my crying so severe that i feel like screaming and even punch and pinch myself to make the pain draw away from the crying and panic. i can't stop running things through my mind 24/7. sleeping is the only relief and that's brief. i am absolutely exhausted from the brain whirling like a raging storm day and night. and the uncontrollable crying can be crippling.
i have lost my appetite but force myself to eat even if it makes me nauseous, which i am anyway. but i have doubled my meds (lexapro) and i tihnk that will take effect soon and calm me down. it has to. i don't know how i'll go back to work and survive on tuesday. i can't let it drag me down or i'll lose everything. i guess i'm learning to be stronger, but it's a %#@&#! hard slog adn it sure is taking it's toll on me.
i find it helpful to read how others cope and what they go through. it is very reassuring.