Hi (again!! ) HolographicTardis, OK, more good things about you (!!).........you're reaching out for help (on here) which can be such a hard if not impossible thing to do for some people; you're sharing with us really personal/painful things; you're sharing your vulnerabilities with us; you're being honest/genuine on here, right?; you're sticking with seeing a counselor despite it being really hard for you!!!!!!
So those things really do say a lot about you, they're more than good, they're excellent!!!
And you know some of your problems might well be coming from depression and/or something else e.g. anorexia???? (and maybe some other things you've gone through/are going through in your life??). Those things don't need to define you though, who you are!!! And if you can work on them with some help, you are probably going to find some things easier.
Just for starters........."fat/ugly"............you aren't going to convince me of that!!!
All a matter of perspective!!! And if your self esteem is down, if you're depressed, if...........then those things are going to be blurring your perspective.
The same as with the hating social situations that may get easier for you.......but hey, if in the end it turns out you're not really the "social type" that can still be OK, plenty of people aren't and can still feel fulfilled in their lives once they find a path/paths that suit them.
So let's not see this as a reflection of you, hey?? Maybe more so some of the effect of some problems you're having, and problems that can be worked on with the right help/support. Just don't be afraid to reach out for that, hey?? Like I said you deserve it!!!!!

Alison