Hi, I wouldn't mind some input here. I have been facing a really stresful situation lately. I was asked to embark on a project which was not well-thought out. A business associate proposed it and through him I met the people working on this event. There were many reasons not to be part of it 1) my company didn't have the money and 2) even if it did I wouldn't embark on this event because it was poorly organized and I would have to do most of the work BUT if this event was indeed wonderful and well-organized then I would have made the effort to find backers . Also, I feel because the organizers were not on the ball, they kind of misrepresented themselves so I did not go in. I talked to my friend, my business associate and told him that I am backing out and told him why. He thinks it's just a question of finances but it is more than that. Why does he not hear my other concerns whic are related to workload and ethics? (Of course, when I backed out, I said to the event organizers that it was just finances and that maybe next year we can participate.) But it seems like I got what I wanted. Thinking about participating or not was stressing me out for a week. But instead of feeling empowered by my decision, I feel depressed. I feel angry at my associate for not researching the d**m thing before proposing it to me, I feel angry at myself for having trusted him and not doing the research myself, I feel angry that I can't tell the organizers the truth, that they are doing a lame *** job and that is why I can't participate, I feel angry that my associate only hears that "it was just that we couldn't afford it" and doesn't listen to the rest of my concerns, and I feel sad that this stupid thing was not well organized because it would have been a great opportunity to showcase our products because the buyers were in town. And I wonder in the back of my head if maybe I should have just bitten the bullet, gotten involved and just do all the work myself. This was something that I could have done but for some reason I just REFUSE to do. I just refuse to be the caretaker for slackers. I feel like I've been doing this all my life and just don't want to do it anymore. I am not a kid! I feel like at this point in our business we shouldn't be doing things in this unprofessional way. So tell me, when logically, I should be feeling great about a responsible decision why do I feel depressed, anxious and guilty? Why do I feel like I may have missed on an opportunity even though logically I know that it would not have worked? Why do I let people second-guess me andn why do I second-guess myself? What is wrong with me?