Thank you all. Just such a shame and a tragedy really. He was a grandad but he was still only 67. He went unexpectedly so he has to have a post mortem. We don't think it was related to the vascular dementia.

Trying to stay strong. I know it sounds selfish but I'm actually beginning to get annoyed at having to be the strong one. Its been like it for months now...just ploughing on. I don't have the time or energy to allow myself to come to terms with my emotions.

In other news CMHT called today (that was quick) to tell me they're waiting for a cancellation for early January for an appointment. They gave me their new number and told me to call them if I need to speak to a psychiatrist earlier. Good news hopefully.

Thank you everyone. A wonderful community and I don't know what I'd have done without you all, time and time again