Wishing you all the best... I know what it's like to want to die (I just got released one month ago from hospital psych ward after a suicide attempt). But, I can tell you that I'm glad I'm here. I still struggle with the pain of wanting to give up, but I get reminders that I cannot "fix myself" immediately. What I'm trying to say is to please hang in there. Talk to the good people on here, and reach out to anyone you can. You can always call the suicide hotline if you ever feel desperate. That's what it's there for, and you're worth it. I'd love to chat and exchange helpful advice via private messages if you'd like too. I'm here for everyone, and I sincerely thank this community for helping to save me back.