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Hi all! I had a revelation the other day as I sat wondering why I can't control my emotions, anger, eating, anything... and researched "mood swings." It wasn't long before I came across BPD and realized...that has been me my whole life. I'm in my mid 30s now and every line I read was like taking scenes from sections of my life. I go on Monday to see if I actually have this...but I'm pretty sure I do. Took an online test and got "severe BPD" but obviously I wouldn't be functioning as well as I am if I were truly severe right? For so long, I tried to change and help myself....become a "better" person, be more calm and understanding to no avail. I felt like a complete failure until a few days ago. I'm hopeful that I can get treatment and live a semi-normal life if I work hard at trying to get better or manage it. I'm also excited to connect with others that face the same struggles as I have... After feeling so alone, I'm glad there is a network to discuss struggles with this. What have you experienced?
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