I'm still here
Having a bit of a rough time myself... Christmas isn't helping. Family and all... I hit a bump with my therapist too and freaked out over it. In a way it was good, because it has both given us some clarity about the therapy process and our future work together. But it wasn't fun.
Sorry you're not doing well, Adespota. I totally understand about not wanting to go to hospital. I'm sending you lots of positive thoughts, you too Skeezyks.